Practice, practice, practice!
Later:
It occurs to me that playing like Django Reinhardt really involves trying to think like Django Reinhardt. And since he was a genius like Charlie Parker was a genius, that'll take quite a shift in my brain. The thing is that when I have a sudden insight into how Django's mind worked, I get so excited, it flies out of my head immediately. Like when a kid first learns how to balance on and ride a bike without training wheels, realizes what he's doing and immediately falls to the ground. At the same time, it's like what I imagine religious ecstasy must be like. I get a flash of total communion, and with the next breath, it's gone. The arpeggios and scales are so that I don't have to think about my hands and can play what my head is singing. I must retool my hearing, disconnect my chattering mind in order to connect with somthing bigger. I know I can do this. I have improvised before accidentally when I was really into a song I was practicing. When I became aware of it, I fell off my bike. Fearlessness will come when my hands and ears and emotions are seamlessly connected. I am sure that there are musicians who just phone it in, but why do that when you can truly exist and feel your whole life and world in a note? Just be from note to note. And in between the notes. That's the difference between playing patterns like a machine and playing the patterns because you hear and feel them and they just happen to be how the sounds are mapped out on the fretboard.
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and i can't improvise to save my life. take away my sheet music and i'm in real trouble, so very impressed that you can at all - keep up the practice!